If I ever see the world, I want to see it with you.
you bring color to my world
I’m sorry that I said anything about him. I made you upset. I never wanted to do that. I never intended to do that. I’m sorry.
“This photograph is my proof. There was that afternoon, when things were still good between us, and she embraced me, and we were so happy. It did happen. She did love me. Look for yourself.”Duane Michals, 1974
Your confession made me realize how close I was to not having you at all—how close we would have been to not being together. I know we have each other now, but just thinking about the possibility of us not being like this makes me really scared about how fragile it all really is. But that also makes me realize how lucky I am. I’m so happy to have you, and I don’t believe for a second that I would have been able to be okay after everything that’s happened if I didn’t have you with me. So thank you. Thank you for everything.
July 18, 2013
And if I’ve gone overboard, then I’m begging you to forgive me in my haste when I’m holding you so close to me.
I can’t help but be a little bit envious when I see pictures of couples looking all happy and cute together. I’m not jealous of them being happy together. I know that we are. I think I’m more jealous of how the world gets to see that they’re happy, and I feel like we have to hide. We can’t always be ourselves in public. We can’t always do what we want to in the eyes of others. I just want us to have the freedom they do.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry for any doubts I may have given you or planted in your mind by some terrible mistake. All I wanted to do was share how I felt. The good and the bad. I wanted to show you that no matter how I felt then, it doesn’t change how I feel now. Do not doubt because of the past. Do not worry for the future. Our past is what paved our road to the present and right now all I want to do is make you feel sure. I want you to feel sure of us—sure of you for me and of me for you. Sure of us for each other. I don’t want this to break just because of a mistake and misunderstandings. Please.